Happy Valentines Day

Still going strong. I've been home for two days now and doing well. No spotting. I took a five, well maybe just a smidge over five, minute shower yesterday. It felt great, but there is this slight pang of panic that affects all activities, I was worried I was taking too long. I was worried that I could start bleeding. While everyone worries that it will be too difficult for me to stay down, what they don't know is that I feel almost trapped and there is no way mentally that I would do anything that would jeopardize the success I have had so far. All I know is if laying here is my only chance, then laying here is what I am going to do, and I'll do the best I can. We have no idea when Jon will be coming home because they keep changing the date on us, but I know he'll be here soon, and soon can't come soon enough. The hardest thing about all of this is having to depend on someone else to execute the things I want done. I just feel so bad about needing everyone. I do know that everyone loves us and supports us and this is there way of showing it, so it does make me smile. On another note, I secretly miss the hospital food, but am looking forward to the menu this morning courtesy of my in-laws, heart shaped pancakes and eggs. Yum! Yum!